"You're right back where you started from"

I've noticed something about myself...I think that I go through these cycles. I find myself--> then I grow and experience life (everything is going pretty good at this point in the cycle)--> Then it all starts to unravel (Stressful and maybe even tramatic things happen during this part)-->Then I die...in a manner of speaking (Basically I lose what I feel are important things to me)-->Then I go through this period of Channeling as I like to call it (Basically I revaluate myself entirely and work on myself) Usually this is when I will make a big decision, usually I change location to separate my old life from my new life-->and thus I begin the cycle again.

I really wish there was a way to break this cycle, cause I'm not really happy with it. I just feel like there must be a better way for me to learn life lessons. But obviously the universe believes that for me as an individual this is the best way for me to make my journey through life. No matter how much I protest, it always happens this way. Which makes me feel like I am always looking around the next bush or waiting for that shoe to fall because I know with every good thing there is always a bad thing. How the does the saying go: "For every action there is always an equal and opposite reaction"...I'm pretty sure I'm applying that right...but who the fuck knows. Not me obviously.

All I guess I'm really trying to say is that I feel like I never actually get anywhere because I always end up right back where I started, and maybe we all feel that way. Maybe that's the way life is suppose to be. I don't know. I'm as clueless as the next person. I just want to know that I am accomplishing something in life. That I am changing even though I can't see it. I think that we all want that.

Do all of my posts sounds as depressing and sappy as I think they do? I swear that I am not like that really. I just have lots of deep thoughts.

My Motto: Just learn to live you're life. Don't let people push you onto a path just because it will make them happy. Life is hard enough already, don't make it harder on yourself but trying to live it for someone else.

This is my Manifesto